I Don't Get it...

Well something has been on my mind lately so maybe some people can give me some advice....

Well to start out this girl (not mentioning any names) has recently been bothering me. About three days ago this girl talked to my friend over the phone about something and well my boyfriend came up in the subject somehow. Well just to let you know my boyfriend is in boot camp till April 19: (... He left about a week and a half ago. Well this girl started saying how she hung out with him two nights before he left and said that when he comes back they were going to get together. But one of the nights she said he "hung out" with her I actually did... and then the other night he was spending time with his mom, so that really irritated me. Then later that night she messages me on MySpace (which is the devil) asking me questions and trying to have a conversation with me. I could have let it go but knowing me I have to know why she's saying all those things. Well sooner or later the conversation heated up and of course at this point she's just going off on me. She said that my boyfriend has been cheating on me, tells her everything instead of me, calling me stupid for still being with him cause of what he did, that they are going to end up together and he's def. going to pick her over me... All of that really got me frustrated and so mad! Also everything I said to her trying to defend myself and how that can't be true she, of course, had to say something that made me even more frustrated!... okay... my boyfriend and I both have had our flaw’s in the past, him more than me but we got over that part and decided to be together. Well that girl saying all of that kind of got me thinking and honestly a little freaked out. But josh was with me every day before he left, said the sweetest things, writes me from boot camp, and lately talked about the future. We have been together for over 3 1/2 years and with all the mistakes he has made he said he will never do any of it again. He freaks out if he does one thing wrong and gets scared that I’m going to leave him. I love this kid to death and he loves me more than anything, but since he's so far away I can't ask him in person only through letter which makes this situation difficult. So is that girl just trying to freak me out and just made all of that up for me to break up with him?? Or could it be possible he could have done any of that or said any of that?(I did write him but it'll be a couple a days till I get the results and I really need it off my mind)

The beginnning of something

Well let me just start out telling you the beginning before i get to the problem. Well i have been with this guy for over three in half years. We met my freshmen year in the middle of December, we were just getting out for Christmas break. After the bell rang i decided to stay at the school to skateboard with my friends. (Back then i was a so called punk and kinda skater) I did not feel like going home because currently i was grounded at the time and so have for most of my life. :) well the guys where trying to teach me and i was kinda scared to get on the board. Then suddenly this guy name josh comes up and starts showing off his tricks. I saw him around school and i thought he was a jerk at first and him showing off his skills didn't help me thinking that way. He suddenly came up to me and introduced himself and i did the same. He asked me if i skated and i said I'm just learning, so he decided to help me. I finally got on the board after a few minutes but i had to hold on to him because otherwise i would of fallen. He was trying to teach me an ali ( not sure how to spell it) but you who skated before probably know what I'm talking about. Well the funny thing is i did so many other tricks like an ali-north and a kick flip, it was really funny because i had no idea what i was doing. Josh was actually impressed but he still wanted me to get the ali. After a while i finally got it, was not the prettiest thing in the world but i did it! i was very exciting! I started talking to josh and telling him thank you, that i really appreciate it. But while i was talking to him i realized he wasn't that bad of guy, in fact he was actually cute ( that's why i don't like judging people because they could be the total opposite then you think) Well after that day Josh and I became really good friends and i had the biggest crush on him, which was really funny. We hung out at school and sometimes out of school because to figure out he lived around the corner from me. After the months went by i started liking him more and more. I was to scared to tell him, thinking he would not feel the same but my cheering friends kept pushing me to tell him because i actually talked about him a lot. Well finally one day i got up the guts to tell him. He picked me up from tumbling class one night and i told him i had something to tell him. We were driving home and talking and it got the point to tell him. My nerves were going and i had butterflies in my stomach. So after a while of delaying it, it finally came out. He looked at me and laughed. It wasn't the answer i wanted but least it wasn't like are you serious look. I asked what was wrong and he just kept laughing. At this point i was kinda irritated. He finally said why did you not tell me and i just shrugged my shoulders. Well it turns out he's liked me since the first day he met me, about eight months ago. I was so relived. So about three weeks later he showed up at my practice with a dozen roses and asked me out. It was so cute and so ever since September 23, 2004 we haven't stopped talking to one another.

Well I'll continue the story another time... because it gives me something else to write about :)

Something about me

Well before i start talking about stuff that's going on in my life, yo9u might need to know a little more about me and who i really am other then my manifesto. Well first off i was more here in Memphis and I've lived in the same house for almost twenty years. (can not wait to move just like every other college student) I've also never had my own room which is my goal right now because my brother just turned twenty eight and i think it is time for him to get out on his own. :) I love to draw. I have been drawing since i could first write. I have been in art clubs, art shows, and art classes. I'm not really really good but I'm still working on it. I've always wanted to draw something and someone like it so much, they would buy it from me. I've never won first place in anything and would love to, but i have been close with second place. I think it's really exciting getting a ribbon. :) I pretty much draw everyday. It makes me calm down when I'm upset and usually when I'm sad i also draw but it's not my best work. Well other then drawing, I also love to cheer. Cheering has been a big part of my life for about seven years. My mom never wanted me to because we couldn't afford it but that did not stop me. I have always wanted to see what it was like so i tried out my sixth grade year! My mom wasn't that happy but she did support me. Well just to let you know cheering is not cheap as you probably heard but I worked my butt off to pay for everything like coaching fee's, uniforms, cheering clothes, trip to Orlando, camp, competitions, and tumbling lessons. It was a lot of work but I loved the sport and I would do anything to keep doing it. It definitely keeps you in shape and it takes you so many places. For instance, my first trip to Disney World was my first year cheering ( I think that's why my mom actually let me stay in the sport so she would so every year) I have has the greatest memories from the years i cheered and have made the most best of friends that I still have today. I'm currently not cheering right now because i could get use to the so-called college life but i plan on cheering for the University of Memphis next semester.

Health Care

The United States of America is known being the most powerful country but not every country is perfect, America still has some Fla's. For instance there health care. The United States does not have the best health care, there are so many problems with this, its ridiculous. Some hospital's in the country wont help someone unless they have insurance. Even if they are injured severely or extremely sick, if they do not have it then they are not treated. It's not fair to alot of people that can not aford it. Insurance is expensive and not everyone in the United States has a good job. Also if someone does have insurance it does not mean they are covered for everything. Like for instance my insurance only covers certain hospitals which is stupid. That means if i really need to go to the hopital to get treated i have to go to the ones they approve, even if that means driving a good distance. Some insurance do not even cover some medication, they might cover a little bit not enough for the person to afford it. In other parts of the world , some countries pay for there people's health care. How can the most powerful country can't do that for it's people? It doesn't make sense and some one should do something about it. This country cares about it's people and to help with health care would be the perfect way!

Is this for real?

A few days ago i was working and I was completely bored! No one was coming in and had been for the past hour or two. I just wanted the time to go by fast and I could go home. Well me and my co-worker ( who i am going to leave her name out) started talking about random subjects like what our favorite foods were, what we rather be doing, and so on. Then father in the conversation we started talking about the war and how we felt about it. We both were against it strongly and thought the troops should come home. It was a pretty interesting subject and we talked a little bit more about it, which made the time go by rather quickly. Well suddenly we started talking about Sept. 11, the whole cause of everything. What she said next shocked me and i couldn't believe what i heard. She told me she didn't believe Sept. 11 didn't even happen... I paused and just looked at her, with a "are you serious" expression on my face. I asked her how she could think that and she started out talking about she thinks the government planned this whole thing. She said there were no planes that crashed in the twin towers, instead there were bombs that the government put in the buildings. Man, when she started saying all of that i was like how can anyone think this. I started asking all these questions like if there were no planes where did all those people go?, why would the U.S. government plan something like this?, how did the TV show planes going through the buildings at the time it happened? She said the gov. did all this just to go to war because war brings money and that's the way supposedly the United States was going to get out of debt. She also said that's the reason Bush was elected again because the gov. knew he would approve U.S. going to war. That's why there was a re-count in the election in 2004 and Bush came out being the President for the second time. She also said she didn't believe that there was a terrorist threat and the gov. just wanted us to believe that because we would live in fear. So we would go out and spend all this money to protect us and to think the war has a good purpose. Oh my god... i couldn't believe this. I told her last year in gov. class we watched a movie about the 911 event and in it they showed evidence of who was on the planes, interview of people who were family of some of the people that were on the plane. They shared phone calls of there love one last goodbye and telling them that there were someone talking over the plane and they were going to try and do something. If there were no planes, which there was three of them, what happen to all those people? She didn't have an answer for that one but she said that scientist who were going through the crash sight said there were no evidence of any planes at all; that the planes couldn't just evaporate. That's why she thinks there is no planes and instead there were bombs that brought it down. She thought it was ironic that the towers came down the same why and that they came straight down and didn't go everywhere. I was about to go crazy at this point because everything i said or tried to explain, she had an answer and through out some bullshit behind it. How could she think that's what actually happen? Why would the gov go through all that trouble? United States has one or has the best and powerful gov. Why would they do this to there people that they do so much to protect? They wouldn't do all of that for money! If any of that stuff is true, which its not, then it goes against everything we believe in and stand for. They wouldn't send over a bunch of our best marines and U.S. forces to go across seas and fight for something that supposedly didn't happen. Also go over there and destroy towns and kill people in Iraq for something they didn't do. It just sounds crazy!! Plus why would the gov kill so many people on Sept. 11? Its pretty much the stupidest thing i ever heard!! And to believe that people out there actually think that the U.S. gov. was actually behind this? It really pisses me off!

This is Simply ME! (My Manifesto)

What does Manifesto mean? I was asking this question when we first received this assignment. After doing some research i discovered that the term Manifesto means it is a document which sets forth the principles and goals of an organization. It is basically designed to be widely distributed to the public and it serves as an official declaration. One famous Manifesto I came across was The Communist Manifesto. To summarize it is bascially a reflection of certain goals of Communism. It also explains the theory behind this particular movement. It argues that the development is inevitable. The intentions were to help this movement and to also help the parties and associations that are pushing history forward to its natural state.

Another Manifesto i came across was a very well known document....The Declaration of Independence. This Manifesto is the glue that keeps our country together. Its a guideline to how we should organize and run the country as smoothly as possible. As years pass this declaration still continues to keep our nation strong!

After learning about Manifesto I finally realized what my very own would be like. The title of my Manifesto would be ...This is Simply ME! Its about my life and what i deeply believe in. Its simple enough for an everyday average person to read and get a complete and full understanding of who i truly am and "to not judge a book by its cover."

To start off I was born on February 21, 1988 in Memphis, Tn. I am the fourth of five children. I have three older brothers who all attend The University of Memphis and a younger sister who still attends Bartlett High School. I am a freshman at Memphis, I am currently studying the different aspects of the world of Art! I have been interested in art since I was little, drawing is my favorite past time, when im not working or at school im drawing. My options are very open as to what my career choice will be, but whatever it is I will be successful and be able to support myself and not have to rely on anyone. Im a very hardworker anything you throw my way i will achieve. Failure is not in my vocabulary. One of my pet peeves is being lied to. I believe thats the worst thing to do to a person. Its disrespectful and it scarring to any relationship. I do have a soft side, I always put others before myself. I am the type of person anyone can come to if they have a problem. I have had to handle almost every situation throughout my life and can relate to any problem that someone brings to me.

Luthern is my religious belief, it is a more laid back version of catholicism. I attend the church Emmanuel Luthern with my family but also when i visit my Grandparents i attend a Catholic church in Knoxville, Tn. I also believe very strongly in true love. I believe everyone has a certain somebody that their meant to be with . I believe someone might have to go through multiple people they love to truly find that one special person even if it means a broken heart every now and then. Its better to love then to have never loved before. I believe love is God's greatest gift we could recieve.

I am thankful for so many things in my life. For instance, my family and everything they have given me, like a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, and the values they have taught me. Im also thankful for my friends who are always there for me through thick and through thin. Without them I wouldn't be the person I am today. I might not show how much i appreciate them all the time, but honestly I am grateful for everything I have today.

I believe everyone has there own choice and need to make there own decision, no one should rely on someone else's opinion. I also believe no one should judge someone else by their appearance because not everyone knows what that person has been through. God didn't make perfect people because if we were all perfect, we wouldn't be able to grow and learn from our mistakes and become better people.